In memory of Shane Torrence (1/28/93 - 9/11/99)
A mom on a mission raising awareness of the condition that took my only child at age 6 and a half - Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia CDH takes the lives of 15,000 children every year and harms 15,000 more.
Will you care?

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Shane's Video

This is Shane.... in all his silly glory.... we are blessed with a lot of video of him and once I figure out how to convert it all from VHS better, I plan to make to put together a lot more videos.

Working on this was HARD! Some I hadn't seen since he died... but so worth it. I kept his memory so close to my heart for so long... for fear it would hurt too much to talk too much about him. For fear others would judge since he was 6 and a half when he died. For fear that I'd fall down into grief again and never get back up. Well, I was right on 2 accounts... in the past year since I did this video and really talked about Shane more and focus a bit more on him... it has hurt and been hard to do, I have been (wrongly) judged... BUT I didn't fall down into grief again. And guess what? It feels GOOD to talk about him and share his life with others! Sharing him with C and the boys, sharing more stories at CHERUBS, doing more things in his memory..... feels good. It makes me feel closer to him. I should not have been afraid all those years... but then, I survived those years too so I'm not going to be hard on myself for keeping Shane close to my heart.

A lot more videos to come in the future... when I have the time and Kleenex to work on them....

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